There was a sentence in your letter that struck me, I wish I were far away from everything, I am the cause of all, and bring only sorrow to everybody, I alone have brought all this misery on myself and others. These words struck me because that same feeling, just the same, not more nor less, is also on my conscience.

The Letters of Vincent Van Gogh to His Brother, 1872-1886 (ed. 1927)