I could only relate to a dead image of the person I could love. The image of my dead grandfather would be the model of him at his most striking in my mind. It seems necessary for them to have been dead in order that I could express those feelings which were the feelings I held sacred for my grandfather... it was a pseudo-sexual, infantile love which had not yet developed and matured. The sight of them [my victims] brought me a bitter sweetness and a temporary peace and fulfillment.


As quoted by Brian Masters (2011), Killing for Company, Random House, p. 189, ISBN 1446428737


I could only relate to a dead image of the person I could love. The image of my dead grandfather would be the model of him at his most striking in my ...

I could only relate to a dead image of the person I could love. The image of my dead grandfather would be the model of him at his most striking in my ...

I could only relate to a dead image of the person I could love. The image of my dead grandfather would be the model of him at his most striking in my ...

I could only relate to a dead image of the person I could love. The image of my dead grandfather would be the model of him at his most striking in my ...