I realized that I had granted my illness lordship over me. In viewing my depression as a despot subjecting me to its savage fancies, I was able to escape responsibility, to indulge fully my selfish desire to let my ego flourish unfettered, not obliged to anyone. But this wasn't freedom. It was a prison-a cell separating me from those who cared for me and for whom I might have cared.

Everyone Loves a Good Train Wreck: Why We Can't Look Away (ed. Sarah Crichton Books, 2012) - ISBN: 9781429969482