Because I'm a Karamazov. Because when I fall into the abyss, I go straight into it, head down and heels up, and I'm even pleased that I'm falling in just such a humiliating position, and for me I find it beautiful.
The Brothers Karamazov: A Novel in Four Parts With Epilogue (ed. Macmillan, 2002) - ISBN: 9781429927215