I've always been bad. Probably I shall be bad again, punished again. But the worse I am, the more I need God. I can't shut myself out from His mercy.... Or it may be a private bargain between me and God, that if I give up this one thing I want so much, however bad I am, He won't quite despair of me in the end.

Brideshead Revisited: The Sacred and Profane Memories of Captain Charles Ryder (ed. Penguin UK, 2012) - ISBN: 9780141903187