I wish for a moment that time would lift me out of this day, and into some more benign one. But then I feel guilty for wanting to avoid the sadness; dead people need us to remember them, even if it eats us, even if all we can do is say "I'm sorry" until it is as meaningless air.
The Time Traveler's Wife (ed. Simon and Schuster, 2014) - ISBN: 9781476764832